estelle applebee

2010-10-10T22:03:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, we got to go back to where we came from.

Love, is in all the littliest of things. They don't cost much. Often they don't take too much time. The littliest of things are in a sweet SMS, in praises, in a surprise little stalk of petals, in a little card, in a warm gesture, in giving her not just your ears but your heart when she wants to pour her heart, and of cos letting her really know you want to hear her heart, and finally, love is in a tiny little extra mile you go... They require some creativity. But that's about it! Not too time-consuming, not too expensive.

And all these come so naturally in the pursuing stage. These little gestures are like the fuel to your partner's love tank. And we continue to do these things way into the relationship because the person means the world to us and we want the person to feel important and to feel loved. Sometimes we forget all about the '5 love languages', but they really are important and they keep the love alive. :)

2010-09-23T23:31:00.002+08:00

A strange night to behold. It is utterly rare to have completed sufficient work for the day and have space and time for other things. This new album dear uploaded onto my phone is quite a sensation! Especially track 6! This is the 1000 time it has been played on my phone? Hahaha...

2010-09-22T22:59:00.003+08:00

1. It is utterly important that we count our blessings. In pagan's sense, one might want to simple put it as choosing to see that the glass is half full, not half empty. In this choice of counting our blessings all the time, we acknowledge and remember that God is our alpha and our omega. Without Him, we really are nothing. This attitude brings along with it a thankful and joyful heart, one, that produces diamonds, not lemons - better, never bitter.

2. Faith, not sight. Logic is of such importance in today's world. Thankfully, God is the creator of logic, and He chooses when to use it, and when not to. I never want to become so logical that I missed out on God's other moves. I need to be close to the leading of God so I can make wise decisions every day for His glory. We ought not to live for ourselves, but for God.

2010-09-22T22:59:00.002+08:00

It's about time I find my voice. Facebooking doesn't encourage expression of self because it is too loud and impersonal. Here I am, with my trusty old friend - my blog. This blog is home. It is safe and she has journeyed with me for quite abit. Of cos she is not the 100% Estelle, because all forms of writing go through censorship in one way or another. One knows the potential audience of what she writes and would either consciously or subconsciously select what would be penned down. Anyway, hi!

2009-11-08T21:15:00.002+08:00

we live in a loud world.
people, tv, mp3, psp and what not.

the space we create to hear ourselves is so important.
to hear our true thoughts.
to reflect on our lives.
to dream our future.

---

i realise i can't do this alone.

i see what's apparent,
yet so much more goes on beyond the human eye.

i plant, i water,
yet, without that breath of God,
there is no life.

i'm 24, and i'm happy with my progress.
yet when i think about the greatness of my big God,
i realise there is so much more.

'there must be something more,
there must be somethin more!
awaken my soul!
to who i am in You!'

i wanna stand so yielded before my God,
so that this life belongs entirely to Him,
to fulfill the very purposes this life was created for.

2009-11-06T08:14:00.002+08:00

found this in my phone
31 july 2009, 11.55pm, on the bus

july is finally done.
long trudgy month that stretches late into the week.

i like new months,
the freshness of a new page,
of the digit 1,
an assurance that the forgiven past is being flipped behind,
an assurance of a steady start.

2009-11-05T23:30:00.003+08:00

differences in convictions, values and ideas can separate people.

afterall, convictions and values are close to our hearts and they are the cornerstone of how we live. people with very different convictions and values obviously don't become the best of friends.

with ideas, i believe, is a different issue.

ideas need to be received with open minds, communicated of their purposes and expanse of possibilities, discussed and evaluated. ideas don't define who we are. there is no need for a gulf when ideas are different. my ideas don't define who i am, your ideas don't define who you are. and we are all secure and happy.

=D

2008-06-20T18:04:00.001+08:00

new faces.
warm hearts.
mrs tan was so nice to come say hi to me.
she made me feel so welcome! =)
nice start!
praise God!

=)

2008-05-17T09:01:00.001+08:00

2008-05-17T00:09:00.003+08:00

five months into the year.
guess its been good.

my career is my calling,
feels right in the direction i'm heading.

fine with parents and brother.
i love my brother more each day,
he's such a promising young man.

financially i'm learning,
to understand money,
as a young adult new to the working domain.

in God,
it is a year of ministry.
a constant dissatisfaction,
need more of His power,
to be effective,
to have powerful seeds sown,
to have fruits that have strength,
that will remain to eternity.

i discovered the world of literature,
beautiful, amazing world.
every book a world by itself,
every book a new perspective to hold.

i'm thankful for yieling,
for her wisdom.
i'm thankful for lilian,
for her consistent friendship.
i'm thankful for yihan,
his thinking mind, his perspectives.
i'm thankful for daniel,
spurring me on in this journey,

i'm thankful to God,
for this life to live,
everyday a new experience,
to learn,
to grow,
towards a better world,
on this journey with Him.

=)

2008-05-13T16:06:00.002+08:00

charlotte's web.

"charlotte had written the word RADIANT, and wilbur really looked radiant as he stood in the golden sunlight. ever since the spider had befriended him, he had done his best to live up to his reputation. when charlotte's web said SOME PIG, wilbur had tried hard to look like some pig. when charlotte's web said TERRIFIC, wilbur had tried to look terrific. and now that the web said RADIANT, he did everything possible to make himself glow."

2008-05-13T11:22:00.002+08:00

"fat boy swim" is about a really obese teenager.
the adults in his lives give in to his whims and fancies.
finally, it was decided that he needs tough love in his life.

tough love.

if there is such a term as "soft love",
it is a love that yields no character and geninue good for the person receiving this love.

tough love does what is needed to develop the person.

we have the best of intentions,
which young couple do not set forth in their family life with dreams of a happy, balanced family?
yet, it is often the lack of the right strategies that spoil things.
best intentions + best strategies = best results.

and one of the worst traits to have is pride.
the kind of pride that resists correction.
the person remains the same, 10 years, 20 years...
thats' really sad.

2008-05-12T04:24:00.003+08:00

sometimes we wonder why certain things happen.
everything happens for a purpose?

and a little chapter of her life wonders what the episode was for?
did she pass the test then?
she hopes so.

many questions.
but it is not always that we are offered the right answers,
our minds but suggest the various possibilities,
and that is the most irritating aspect of it all.
we want black or white,
yes or no.
"maybe" and "perhaps" are just so cruel,
toying with our minds.

but yeah,
all things work out good lar! =D

2008-05-09T01:50:00.003+08:00

very blessed.
discipleship class with wenling.
we went through "how to counsel".
counselling is such an art.
and it can make a whole world of difference when done with mr holy spirit.

fellowship created the chance to get to know wenling better.
she shared a little of her growing up times in church.

you know, pastor kong was just a young man,
trying his best to lead some youths.
today, so many people are being impacted through this ministry.
all those youths are now world-shakers and history-makers.

many more world-shakers and history-makers in the making!
let us keep the focus and dream big dreams for God,
and see the dreams turning into reality!
=D

2008-05-07T11:33:00.002+08:00

and so.
end of the hostel experience.
school's almost done and it's time to go home.
i wanna go home too.
it's time to go home.
=)

its individualistic lifestyle vs family lifestyle.
not totally individualistic...
the clothe-lines are shared, so are the fridge, washing machines, toilets...
haha...

it's a bubble, cos' at hostel, one don't see enough stratas of society, only fellow university students... what about the grannys, the white-collared, blue-collared and the infants?

but yeah,
i will miss having the gym just a few steps from where i live,
i will miss being so close to nature,
its breeze, its scent...

i will miss jumping out of my bed at 8am for the 830am class.
haha...

farewell hostel,
farewell the angelic room-mate.

i wanna go home,
i'm back home.
=)

2008-05-05T23:26:00.002+08:00

when an angmo speaks mandarin,
we think he's brave.

so why should a chinese person be afraid of people laughing at him when he speaks english,
even if he does it badly?

-old chang kee chairman, han keen juan

2008-05-04T18:07:00.005+08:00

i am a dreamer...
as a small child i would lie awake in bed, my mind would wander
and begin to overtake me. vivid vision would make me smile and
make me cry. i would get excited, my heart would race,
on that tiny bed where i would lie.
curious and eager i would ask...
who will i be when i grow up?
who will i marry?
will i ever get old?
more importantly, why was i here?..
~nikki fletcher

it's a question we cannot run away from.
i remember asking this question too.
i'm glad i found the answer to it.

we need an adventure to live for.
i'm thankful i found my adventure.
=D

----

i didnt choose the day i was born.
i didnt know the day that i will die.
i do know that i am here right now.
i do know that i am allowed to choose.
my greatest fear is that the time
i have been given would be wasted.
i hope that the time i have will serve
the purpose for which i was sent.

each day as i rise, mercy greets me.
as the sun touches the sky i am made new,
the former things have passed.
life is beautiful, because he has made
everything beautiful in its time...
i want to be in the perfect timing of God,
because I know He has placed me strategically,
specifically in this day.
i want to learn everything i can.
i want to be a blessing to all i meet.
i want to give every drop of my life
and all my affection to the ones i love.
i want my days to be yielded to the lord
and my steps ordered by Him.

Thank you for all the days you
have destined before me.
Help me be faithful and wise.
Let me finish my race with my
head held high.
let me be beautiful in my time.

~nikki fletcher

2008-05-04T17:37:00.001+08:00

2008-05-04T16:34:00.002+08:00

this weekend feels special.

weiqin and rachel were at cgm.
yiting n rachel came for saturday service.

vincent got promoted to team leader.
ivy officially came back to usher ministry.
usher ministry farewelled me.

yuangchin made the decision for God once again.
yeyuan had her first taste of a church service.

=)
=)
=)

i wanna live each day true and right,
close to my God,
and at the end of it all,
hear Him says,
well done, my good and faithful estelle.
=>
=)
=D

2008-04-27T23:05:00.002+08:00

the movie.

the same dream to pursue,
he and she,
each having a stronghold against the dream.
he and she, together,
the dream came true.

there are few spoken lines in the movie,
with much close-up shots of faces.

his face of resolution.
her face of fragility.
her husband's face of insecurities.

classic lines

"it is about who you become when you try (to pursue your dream)"

"lead me"

"get up"

---
we need dreams to live for.
what are your dreams?
=)

2008-04-26T23:38:00.001+08:00

well done.
well done.

a day at a time,
a day at a time.

2008-04-25T23:11:00.003+08:00

"what is it that you assumed i am, that i'm not?"

----
"cos' its an adventure" =)

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charlotte's web is such a sweet story.
yes, belinda read it when she was in primary school,
but, better late than never! hee!

its so simple, so real, so true. =)

"from 3pm to 4pm, he planned to stand perfectly still and think of what it was to be alive"

"wilbur didnt want food, he wanted love. he wanted a friend - someone who would play with him."

"life is always a rich and steady time when you are waiting for something to happen or to hatch."

"wilbur was merely suffering the doubts and fears that often go with finding a new friend. in good time he was to discover that he was mistaken about charlotte."

----
singapore river.

the night breeze that comes with nature.
to the right, a majestic fullerton basks in its orange-warm glow.
a string of little screaming neon lights, to the left,
a juxtaposition.
=D

i'm a sucker for nature.
give me the blue of the sea,
give me the green of the trees.
give me the breeze of the sea,
give me the scent of the trees.
i'm a sucker for nature.
=)

2008-04-21T22:54:00.002+08:00

job's children and property were all gone.

yet, how positive were his responses!

"naked i came from my mother's womb,
and naked shall i return there.
the lord gave, and the lord has taken away;
blessed be the name of the lord."

"shall we indeed accept good from god, and shall we not accept adversity?"

i salute job.

2008-04-21T00:32:00.002+08:00

hopeful meaningless wait.

on 'the pursuit of happyness'.
he fought well,
did what he could,
and made it.

i dont understand.
my worst fear came true?
something better to come along?
i dont understand.
maybe i dont have to understand.

2008-04-20T18:06:00.003+08:00

Anastasia,

you know we love you,
you know we're always praying for you,
that you will grow to be a great woman of God,

loving God,
loving people,
touching heaven,
changing earth.

=D

---
family
family is love
family is acceptance,
not what you can achieve,
just who you are.
=D
family.

2008-04-20T01:19:00.003+08:00

watched E.T.

i wonder if elliot wishes that the e.t. had never entered his life,
to cause so much grief now that he is gone.

yes it was fun,
yes it was memorable,

yet the looming pain is just
arggg....

maybe it was but a dream.

2008-04-17T10:02:00.004+08:00

a few years ago, at the Seattle Special Olympics, nine contestants, all physically or mentally disabled, assembled at the starting line for the 100-yard dash.

at the gun, they all started out, not exactly in a dash, but with a relish to run the race to the finish and win. all, that is, except one little boy who stumbled on the track, tumbbled over a couple of times, and began to cry.

the other eight heard the boy cry. they slowed down and looked back. then they all turned aroung and went back. every one of them.

one girl bent down, kissed him and said: "this will make it better." then all nine linked arms and walked together to the finish line.

everyone in the stadium stood, and the cheering went on for several minutes.

people who were there are still telling the story.

why? because deep down we know this one thing: what matters in life is more than winning for ourselves. what matters in this life is helping others win, even if it means slowing down and changing our course.

---

"Esther walked with the women now, although most of them were older than she was. She did not often have much to contribute to their conversation, which was usually about husbands and children. She did not truly fit in, but somehow she did not fit in with the energetic,squealing children either. She had grown past that stage. She was not a child, but she was not quite a woman."

growing up can sometimes present one with lives' toughest moments.

i had a hard time growing up,
trying to make sense of this world i was in,
trying to take my positions and roles,
turbulent emotions raging over stability,
you know, all those.

so i'm thankful for now.
having gone through all that,
with experience and maturity,
life is more in my control,
and happier.

you will emerge. =D

----
and so, the breathtaking assignments are done.

yes, breathtaking,
cos', before you can breathe upon the submission of one,
you got to begin work on the next submission.

haha,
anyhow, at this switch in pace of the learning term,
allow me to take stock of these 31+29+31+17=108 days into the year.

ICT convinced me of its potential.

Ed Psy taught me to see beyond the apparent and made me believe that i can effectively manage a class.

English classes with Ms Caroline Chan enthused me with a greater passion to teach, and empowered me with strategies to teach writing and grammar.

Literature lessons did the same. Fun and effective literature teacher in the making.

----
I'm thankful for this hostel experience.
i realise everything costs something,
since i need to personally buy everything i need,
from washing powder to laptop (haha!)

----
I'm moving on in ministry,
i'm thankful for that.
impact lives.
impact lives.

----

impact lives.
to love,
and to teach.

that wont go too wrong.
=>

and most importantly,
always stick close to God.
=D

life moves forward.
forward.
forward with milestones.

2008-04-16T00:04:00.002+08:00

you know,
i've disappointed myself so many times,
if its gonna happen another time,
it will just be another time.
cos' i'm so brave by now.
=<
(emo-mode)

but God.
but God says,
He says hope does not disappoint.

and so i will still hope.
i believe Him.
=)

2008-04-16T00:02:00.000+08:00

woah!!!

2008-04-13T02:16:00.000+08:00

2008-04-12T00:02:00.004+08:00

i call it a service.
since there were offering n Word too.
the difference was that praise and worship was extra long! =)

the Word got me the most excited.
mr preacher's name is al gordon.
i think he is so anointed!
he shared his testimony,
gave a cool metaphor of who God is,
and altar call was given.
=D

the presence of God was most tangible at the last worship. =)

the girls.
preach His word.
be trained.
be trained.
prepare.
prepare.

a disciple is a thoroughly trained worker with a great attitude.

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i was overjoyed when i turned around and saw you reading the book.

i really believe that the love for reading changes people's lives.
read on, young lady, and see it transform your life! =D

2008-04-10T23:57:00.003+08:00

take heart.

sermon by Pastor faith. Becos Pastor tan used a whiteboard last week also =x

a milestone in their journey with God. =D

2008-04-10T01:49:00.002+08:00

A Teacher

inspires love for Singapore
keeps the sense of wonder alive
cares deeply about morals and character
urges enterprise, innovation, curiosity and creativity
seeks to learn continously
knowing that life never stands still
challenges students and helps them
finds the potential within themselves

believes there is no greater calling for
influencing the young than being a teacher

2008-04-06T23:24:00.000+08:00

Mangobee ♥ Applebee ! ツ says:
today our ushers are so cute
we cnt go into the hall until after announcement video
then a few ushers including me worship outside the hall
at life lobby there
cos can hear the sound ma
then all of us dun wan miss the time worshipping God
i can feel God's presence at life lobby there ! wow
next time try ok?
ok.. u faster go finish ur work..
=D

2008-04-06T21:43:00.003+08:00

life and death comes from the mouth.
a word can make or break a person.

we often don't realise how powerful our words can be.
we are flippant with our words,
we care no less but to say what we want to say out.

was anxious over the traffic duty,
never done before in my four years as an usher (as far as i can remember).
and the limited manpower made me wonder if i would be scaffolded through the duty.

yet, an encouraging word from Yonghui cause an immediate surge of faith that
i can do it, and that all will be well.

for all the things we strive to do,
let encouragement be one of them.

speak life,
not death. =D

2008-04-05T16:41:00.002+08:00

out of fear for her life.

but after being encouraged,
and put to the right perspective,
she did the audacious and selfless thing,

"if i perish, i perish!"

and with this,
Queen Esther saved the Jews.

all too often,
we live within the comfortable zone,
we miss the big picture,
we live our small lives.

i'm so encouraged by Queen Esther,
for the right Cause i wanna live,
"if i perish, i perish!"

giving 200%.

2008-04-04T22:05:00.002+08:00

God's child.
God's shepherd.
------

Mangobee ♥ Applebee ! ツ alleluia to Christ the lord says:
we are busy women that busy with God's calling
Mangobee ♥ Applebee ! ツ alleluia to Christ the lord says:
God ask me to be someone who do great things that even if i am not good at academic.. but i can change lives

2008-04-04T19:59:00.003+08:00

world's on fire!
you need to check this out:
http://youtube.com/watch?v=hzoNInZ2ClQ

Hearts are worn in these dark ages
You're not alone in this story's pages
Night has fallen amongst the living and the dying
And I try to hold it in, yeah I try to hold it in

The world's on fire and
It's more than I can handle
I dive into the water
[I try to pull my ship]
I try to bring more
More than I can handle
[Bring it to the table]
Bring what I am able

I watch the heavens and I find a calling
Something I can do to change this moment
Stay close to me while the sky is falling
Don't wanna be left alone, don't wanna be alone

Hearts break, hearts mend
Love still hurts
Visions clash, planes crash
Still there's talk of
Saving souls, still the cold
Is closing in on us

We part the veil on Archille's sun
Stray from the straight line on this short run
The more we take, the less we become
A fortune of one that means less for some

2008-04-04T09:51:00.003+08:00

remember the toilet door that slams itself so rudely loud?

overtime, i've gotten used to it and have become an accomplice to this vice,
by failing to hold the door for a little while longer till it kisses its frame gently.

what i so believed could be better i failed to continue in.

lazy.
complying with the norm.

no no.
do what i believe in.

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i cannot recall this -
the sky ever roaring so defeaningly loud.

to use personification terms,
it was like a really angry man, fuming away with torrential rain,
as though the rain could punish the perpetrator of whatever grave crime that was committed.

-------------

ok, i realise i have a thing against loud noise.

gee.

2008-04-02T00:01:00.003+08:00

"then promise to change and whatever shit.
but i still feel that my life is like rotting everyday."
she said of this.

don't we all had or are having this?

we feel life rottening by the day,
in downward decadence.
it doesnt have to be so.

there is a Light that shines in the darkness.
=)

2008-04-01T23:02:00.001+08:00

i want to model my classroom teaching after Ms Caroline Chan.

she calls each one by name.
she has a spelt-out structure to every lesson.
she gives all of her energy.

hmmm. yar. =)
remember ok?

2008-04-01T22:05:00.002+08:00

and the calendar page flipped itself backward.

restart mode.
fresh month, fresh beginning.

there is freshness and lightness to the small numbers of a new month.
1!
2!
3!
4!

while 28,29,30,31 are like the last days of a person's life,
dreadful and painful.

Happy April, hopeful and bright!

2008-03-31T01:08:00.002+08:00

a moment so sweet,
it made your day.
a moment so sweet,
you wish can always be.
a moment so sweet,
a smile lights up at the thought of it.

2008-03-31T00:22:00.001+08:00

applebee and mangobee.
happy sisters! =D

2008-03-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

one can a make difference.
but a team can do much more.

a team with members flowing with the same vision and having the same great attitude can do the most!

my cell group, my w260!
=D

2008-03-29T01:48:00.002+08:00

overall, it's pain.

yet, not Sarai's Hagar way.
cos' it's not God's way.

no matter what,
we don't wanna take matters into our own hands.
cos' we love God.

love is patient.
love is kind.

=>

2008-03-27T21:05:00.005+08:00

sipping the milk tea from the little porcelain cup,
i felt the warm liquid invigorating both my mind and my body.

sometimes, sitting by ourselves and observing the world goes by offers new insights.

the stall at the right-hand corner of canteen 2 was different -
in that the vendors were not the middle-age men and women of the other stalls.

the five men were in their twenties, most probably malaysian chinese.
watching them served their customers,
i thought what future was there in this very job,
and how bad a monotony and alienation such a job brought about.
the Company uniform testified of the identity-less nature of the job.

and then i sensed the camaraderie among them.
and perhaps this is the good motivation that kept them at the job day after day,
after the issue of bread-and-butter of course.

people need people.
=)

2008-03-26T18:32:00.004+08:00

i had a rather interesting moment with zhizang last night.
it was tuition, but after a few maths questions,
zhizang began talking to me and asking about careers.

and yes, it is maths tuition,
but knowing the value of this talk about careers for her,
i decided to allow the chat to go on.
and it went on till the end of the tuition session!
woah! haha...

yeah, whatever the eventual career,
God has a great future for your life zhizang!
=D

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i really see the value of small class size.
in NIE, this is being practised.
the tutors know us by name,
we know them personally,
and everybody knows everybody.
nice and happy. =D

you will hear much laughters erupting from classes,
cos' they are always so fun,
and funny.
(in a good way)

i love school.
=D

2008-03-24T17:19:00.003+08:00

i swallowed the book.

through last night and on the train journeys to and fro city hall today.

no time to chew on it,
it has been with me for close to 3 weeks!

heartland by daren vl shiau

i think reading requires a certain degree of identification with the text for the process to be enjoyable.

this is 200% identification.
junior college life.
i felt i was re-living my college days.

a good novel is nobel in that it makes you believe that every single moment of life is worthy to be recorded. it offers such details to the intricacies of life, those we never knew how to put into words.

a good novel is nobel in that it makes you want to be more sensitive to life.

=D

2008-03-23T19:46:00.004+08:00

and easter came, and easter was over.

i think as a cell group, we fared well.
we had friends who came for the first time and watched the easter production.
i think easter would be quite a waste if we were the only ones present.

eight years ago, today, i watched the easter drama and decided that i want a friendship with jesus.
life was unhappy, and a struggle everyday.

time, perhaps can improve things, but certainly not as well as God does it.
eight years on, life is full of purpose and joy. =D

there is this true story of a girl who got lost from her parents on a crowded street in new york. her parents sought high and low for her, and thankfully, found her further down the street. the little girl cried at the sight of her parents, in fear of being reprimanded. and obviously, there was no scolding but passionate hugs from the parents. when asked what happened, she exclaimed, "i followed a man that i thought was daddy, he wore the same jacket."

had the girl not be found, life would never be the same again for the couple. they would continue the search, perhaps put up posters everywhere in their bid to reunite with their very precious one.

there are those who think that we are too aggressive in our attempts, too pushy they say. i apologise if we arent perfect and do not do it most appropriately, but the Father's call for the sons and daughters return is urgent and persistent.

is this the father or the Father?
is this the father or the Father?

can you blame a Father's love that is so deep, so strong?
can you blame a Father's love that is so deep, so strong?

=<
=>
=>

2008-03-20T01:03:00.003+08:00

an inspirational cgl says...

fast and pray
and must really work hard at it lo
CG is almost my Life
almost....
because God IS my Life, He's numero Uno, my Everything....
but i guess....its becoz i breathe in breathe out think abt my CG alot alot
i pray for them and all
they mean ALLLOOOOTTT to me
sooo.....ya....its not so much exactly what i do.... but when u love them sooo much, what that needs to be done will come to you
cheers!
i look forward to u taking ur own CG family!

(inspired and encouraged)

2008-03-19T22:52:00.003+08:00

presentation over.
phew.
a load off my shoulder.
it turned out better than expected.
we wore school uniforms!
haha, fun!

working with maxine, anggy, rochelle and melvyn was just real cool.
everybody putting in their best to make the project a success.
=D

---------

Sandy's graduation last month.
He's my brother's age,
so he's like my younger bro.
Go for your dreams bro! =D

2008-03-18T22:16:00.004+08:00

we had this really fun moment in school today.

looking around for a gift for lilian,
i found cj7 at the school bazaar.

anggy then bought one for herself too,
wayne as well, for his potential girlfriend.

we walked the corridor of the school with 3 cj7 in our hands,
and burst out in laughters!!
=D
a really fun moment to behold.
gee.

2008-03-17T21:43:00.002+08:00

shepherd.
yes you are.

its 24/7.
its hard work.
with ups and downs.

sometimes you wished there was a manual spelt out in black and white.
do this, this result will be guaranteed.
do that, that result will be guaranteed.

but no leh.

every life is unique.
God has a unique Word for every situation.

we just got to stick close to Him,
hear His voice in every step of the way.

remind of youself of the value of this work that you are doing.
and pray for fruitfulness,
and for fruits that will remain. =D

GO FOR IT, LADY! =D

2008-03-16T00:33:00.001+08:00

whatever satisfaction we may achieve in life
must come through
the strength of our engagement
with what is around us.

We do well to read our lives
with the same intensity
we develop from learning to read our texts.

~on life and literature, Scholes

2008-03-15T23:10:00.001+08:00

Kailin! =)

2008-03-14T00:36:00.003+08:00

Hi. Whoever you are. =)

Sitting in the last cabin of this train.
Typing on my laptop.
Brought it along cos wanted to do some work on the train journey.

But now, I need to write about my movie experience.

Every movie is an experience,
And it can be a powerful one.

Had wanted to watch
Leap Years
cos the trailer seemed to suggest a die-hard romantic movie.
I have always admired Wong Li Ling.
Later, I heard that the role of Li Ling is a teacher.
How cool can that be?
Gee.

Finally caught the movie.

At 24, she hasn’t had a boyfriend before cos
haven felt the right feeling.

The male lead praised her for that,
For having the patience to wait for the right one,
Rather than gave in to the awful feeling of being alone.

At 28, this literature teacher got promoted to subject head.

At 32, she opened her books café and owned a car.

At 36, it was happily ever after.

Ok, I feel better now.
The movie got me teary a few times during the show.

----
It amazes me that I am going to be a teacher, a literature teacher.
I didn’t choose to do literature for O levels,
But picked it up again at A levels.
I am loving this very thing I used to hate.

I am thankful for the literature teachers that taught with such passion and patience,
That I now may be so in love with it too.

Literature enriches my life.
It is beautiful.
=)

---

wet weather,
is when your clothes are out on the clothes-line for a few days,
and they are still damp.
gee! =P

2008-03-12T23:47:00.002+08:00

ratatouille

remy: (defiantly) no. dad,
i dont believe it.
you're telling me that
the future is - can only be -
more of this?

django: this is the way things are;
you cant change nature.

remy: change is nature, dad.
the part that we can influence.
and it starts when we decide.
django: (remy turns to leave)
where are you going?

remy: with luck, forward.

=D

----

For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son,
that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
john 3:16

no other reason.
really.
Love, is the reason.

He must increase, but I must decrease.
john 3:30

our carnal mind and flesh always scream,
I!
Me!
Myself!
Mine!

we need to decrease,
and let God increase in our lives.
=)

2008-03-11T14:58:00.002+08:00

Jesus created a miracle at the wedding.
"This beginning of signs Jesus did in Cana of Galilee, and manifested His glory; and His disciples believed in Him." John 2:11

what difference is there if we are entirely like the rest?
Power from on high we need.

"(Jesus) knew what was in man." John 2:25

we have come far enough in life to realise appearance does not always match with reality.
we need discernment to perceive well.

=D

2008-03-11T14:51:00.002+08:00

my mother.

my niece.

the grandmother that left the world young.

2008-03-10T16:15:00.002+08:00

weekend Today featured Melinda, Bill Gates' wife.
there were two pictures of her -
one with her looking into the distant, the sun's rays on her smiling face.
the other one showed her greeting with another warm smile, sex workers in Calcutta.

her beautiful and genuine smiles and aura immediately captured my attention and i read on.

Melinda grew up in a hardworking, middle-class family. With Bill, the couple is proud parents of three school-going children.

Today, the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation has assets of US$37.6 billion, making it the world's largest.

Beginning in July, Bill plans to spend more than 40 hours a week on philanthrophy, leaving 15 or so for his duties as chairman of Mircrosoft. Melinda is also spending more time on foundation work, up to 30 hours a week.

Early on, she and Bill agreed to focus on a few areas of giving - choosing where to put their money by asking two questions: Which problems affect the most people? And which have been neglected in the past?

The said, "We literally go down the charts of the greatest inequalities and give where we can effect the greatest change,"

Rockefeller president Judith Rodin said of the couple, "She and Bill dive into issues. They care deeply, deeply, deeply about making a difference, but they don't get starry-eyed. They demand impact."

Melinda's high school teacher, "Every day she had a goal."
"The goals were run a mile, learn a new word, that sort of thing."

Melinda's valedictory speech, Ursuline academy
"If you are successful, it is because somewhere, sometime, someone gave you a life or an idea that started you in the right direction. Remember also that you are indebted to life until you help some less fortunate person, just as you were helped."

I certainly want to name my future daughter after Melinda. =D

2008-03-09T23:44:00.002+08:00

hi people.

feel encouraged over the weekend.
ready to move on,
stronger.

i read about bill gates' wife.
a great woman.

later on, on tv,
heard more of eunice olsen and denise puah.

women with a Cause

beyond looking pretty,
these women take on a social demension of things.
they care deeply for the suffering and voiceless.
and they do something for them.
and they create radical changes for them.
they make this world a better place for them.

there are people who spend so much time on fixing their own lives,
the way they look,
their little hobbies that take them to no further than themselves....

of course we should look good,
of course we should do things that we enjoy,

but we are blessed to be a blessing...
let us take time to make this world a better place together.
ok? =)

i wanna be a woman with a Cause. =)

2008-03-06T19:58:00.002+08:00

i had an interesting experience last night.
interesting because it was my first time.

for the first time in these three weeks,
i actually could not sleep.

i attributed it to the short nap in the afternoon as well as the thought-provoking assignment just before bedtime.

anyhow, and so, at a quarter past one, i gave up trying to sleep, made myself a cup of milo and sat at my doorstep to read "the kite runner". it was impossible for me to on the lights in my room to disturb my roommate. tell me who would have to heart to do so to an angel? my roommate is an angel. im serious. she is SO nice. =D

there was still some life going on, since the night was my hall's mini-carnival night. i guess people were finishing up the clearing.

i love the night breeze.

as the night grew deeper, i enjoyed the serenity.
yet, the best part of the night was the insights into Amir's life.

Amir is the main character of "the kite runner".

great read.
i love reading.
i love life.
=)

2008-03-05T19:49:00.000+08:00

Kar Yie the cute usher. =D

2008-03-04T20:08:00.002+08:00

teachers =D

for from the first day
that you set your heart to understand,
and to humble yourself before your God,
your words were heard;
and I have come because of your words.
daniel 10:12

but the people who know their God
shall be strong,
and carry out great exploits.
daniel 11:32

2008-03-03T23:38:00.001+08:00

applebee.

a kind of bee?
no, it is a surname.

hi mr applebee.
hi mrs applebee.

applebee.
applebee.

2008-03-03T10:47:00.002+08:00

my cell group.

anggy n i up the school's rooftop

fly away!

2008-02-29T01:14:00.005+08:00

i knew it was to come.

it is part of the hostel experience.
every hostel-lite says so.

my room-mate had to be away for two nights.

when she was around,
at night,
we would back-face each other and do our own stuff on our own computers.

it was when i didnt have her around,
that the absence of it leads to the awakening,
that people need people!!!
even if it is just the physical presence,
it makes all the difference.

it felt horrible having no humans around.
that guy in "legend" - the only human left in his area. oh gosh.
guess i felt a tinge of what he felt.

people need people.
=D

God made us social beings what.
oh ya.
=D

2008-02-27T19:12:00.003+08:00

chanced upon a page of a book,
in which i wrote on sometime back.

i wrote on that page my dreams.

bible school - yes.
NIE - yes.
graduate from nus with cap 3.2 - yes.
stay in hostel and have much time to read all i want - yes.

God is so good.
along the course of life,
we can forget how good God is to us.

---
its true.
i remember how insecure, friendless and not confident i was.
i remember i stuttered a lot.
i remember desiring a wider view of things.
i remember wanting to be happier person.

i remember how tiring life was in nus,
rushing about,
having so many tuition students.

i so enjoy hostel life in nie now.
=)

---
well,
im still on my journey to cell group leadership,
im still awaiting the arrival of mr right.

but yeah,
undeniable,
God has been so so good.
=D
smile!

-------
wrote this in a notebook quite long ago.

2 jan 08, 11.38am
smu

its a conscious choice, decision
each step of the way.
the choice to love,
the choice to be there.
it is rarely convenient.
it takes something out of me,
it takes a chosen sacrifice.

but i focus on the purpose.
i obey god.

i want to see darkness in the hearts of people dispelled.
i want to see love and light illuminating their hearts.
i want people to come to experience the love of Christ.
i want people to come to the knowledge of the Lord.
i want people to find their purpose in the lord.

a life of love,
a love of purpose.

=D
=D

2008-02-27T01:34:00.000+08:00

Jeremy turns 21!!! =D

2008-02-26T23:52:00.003+08:00

rouping......
proud of you!

integrity pays.
even better results u'll have.
you can, you can, you can!
pastor faith!!!

=D

2008-02-25T23:35:00.003+08:00

i really need to clear some messages.

i save those meaningful messages you see.
but phone memory space really dont permit liao.

zhizang 18 nov 07 09:12:04am
ok.. i hope is not a serious matter. =)
(i cant remember what happened, but it showed her maturity and concern. => )

rouping 20 jan 08 04:48:02am
i pray and pray liao but still swollen lei.
will it(gum) be healed?
(a faith in god. a wanting to believe. but reality doesnt match up.
but hey sweetheart... bad things sometimes do happen to good people... don focus on the situation, but trust in the character of god n don give up k?)

delicia 20 aug 2007 12:25:37am
omg, i think i jz spoke in tongues. jz nw i was praying for tongues speaking during my quiet time when i suddenly speak out a string of words that i dnt understand. i keep "la la la" loh... so that means i can speak in tongues?! yay!
(that joy and excitement at receiving the holy spirit. i rem i was so happy. =D)

----
=D

2008-02-24T23:34:00.002+08:00

this song "bleeding love" sounds real cool.
i altared the lyrics.
this is about Jesus.
He bled alot on the cross.

----

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
I tried making better
And it was all in vain
My world turns cold
Before I know it I’m frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with You
My heart melts into the ground
Found something True
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with You
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the Truth
My heart’s overwhelmed by You
That I am so happy
Your love turn my life around

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You keep bleeding
You keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
For Your love for me

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the warmth that comes with Your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your Face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with You
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the Truth
My heart’s overwhelmed by You
That I am so happy
Your love turn my life around

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You keep bleeding
You keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
For Your love for me

Tho it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be bearing the cross
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s overwhelmed by You
That I am so happy
Your love turn my life around

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You keep bleeding
You keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
For the love You have for me ....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You keep bleeding
You keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
For the love You have
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

2008-02-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

with love and with all sincerity.
i do you no wrong.
i only pray we'll see things from the same perspective soon.
---

was on duty and hence sat away from my cell group.
towards the end of the service,
i spotted them directly opposite me.
i was at east, they, west.
the entire row and more.

looked at every face.
realised almost everyone was there today.
at least all of those dearest to my heart.
=)

no one gets left behind.
we're a spiritual family.
we run together this race,
we finish this race together.
no one to be left behind.

2008-02-23T13:14:00.003+08:00

1.14pm.
Just woke up.

What an interesting week.
mid-sem break.

monday,
had the infamous grammar test.
btw, result out.
i passed the test.
miracle!!!!
praise God! =D
celebrated kailin's, weihao's birthday.

tuesday,
discovered that the hostel gym opens 20hrs per week!
wrote assignment's podcast script.
followed kailin and jaslyn to the liondance troupe.
made interesting observations.
guosheng came along and we asked him to take us through the lorongs of geylang.
eye-opener.

wednesday,
had fun podcasting with melvyn n jieying.
sandy n i companied rouping to the polyclinic.
christine arranged a meetup with two other ones.
back to timbre.
farwelled keeyong.

thursday,
sandy's graduation.
rica's dance competition.

friday,
a class.
david's birthday.
"mastering your money" course.
overnight prayer meeting.

saturday,
here i am.

woah!

-----------
pastor told us of the various works of the church all over asia.
proud to be part of such a great work.

we desire to make an impact.
let us truly be able to do so.
effective and have fruits that are strong and will remain.
and not allow undue distractions lure us away from the focus.

2008-02-21T23:08:00.005+08:00

i need to know im doing things the best way.

i need to know im holding onto the right things.

i need to know that the seeds i sow will bear fruits to eternity.

i need to know that there are stability, strength and character involved.

i need to know that people don't succumb so easily.

i need to know i'm living life in Your will and with Your power.

enough of being weak.
enough of being unfruitful.
enough of staying the same.

i need to explode from within.
i need Your special touch once again.

we need regular personal breakthroughs.
we don't want stagnant lives, do we?

-------

on the phone... in hostel..

fren: Estelle, are you in a bird-shop?

that's how birdy my area is.

the other morning, two birds were fighting at 7am.
please la. fight at a later time can?
we were still sleeping lor.
so noisy.
=P

2008-02-21T22:30:00.002+08:00

you realise,
after so long,
you're still doing the same, old thing.
and you wonder why this is so.

a longer preparation stage?
you haven pass the test?
or are you just too complacent?
or are you just not hungry enough for the breakthrough?

---
i think purpose is so important.
everything we do is to have meaning.
that includes having fun with friends,
that, is a purpose too.

but ya,
when we dont see the value in what we do,
we float through life
in such meaningless.
its a very yucky feeling.

---
if getting ahead meant doing the wrong thing,
would you?

if no one was watching,
would you still push for the best?

if no one stopped to help,
would you?

2008-02-19T23:38:00.001+08:00

[c=4] ★[/c] FAITH [: ESTELLE is the one i love : D says:
u noe now i very xinku. but i choose to praise and worship God
[c=4] ★[/c] FAITH [: ESTELLE is the one i love : D says:
: D
[c=4] ★[/c] FAITH [: ESTELLE is the one i love : D says:
cos i remember u said during the last bible study that when we are depress or worried or sick
[c=4] ★[/c] FAITH [: ESTELLE is the one i love : D says:
praise and worship God will help.
[c=4] ★[/c] FAITH [: ESTELLE is the one i love : D says:
(:

2008-02-19T16:45:00.002+08:00

effective.
we all want to be effective.

nobody wants to use a dull axehead,
for it will take forever to get the tree down.

sharpen sharpen.
and the best human sharpener is none other than
mr holy spirit.

----

the toilet door slams itself so loud,
i wonder how the toilet's direct neighbour stands it.
i'm lucky to be 5 units away from it.

sleeps to the symphony of insect sounds,
the crickets leading.
wakes up to the chirping of birds.

everywhere you turn,
it is a tree, or a bush,
green green
beautiful green.

wonderful. =D

the gym opens 20 hours a day.

throw all your dirty clothes in,
out comes clean stuff,
zero ounce of effort needed.
washing machines rock.

2008-02-18T14:04:00.003+08:00

varied life experiences result in people of varied working style.
we cant expect people to behave the same way.
if we do, we are just putting onto ourselves undue stress from unrealistic expectations.

------------
retrospection is important.
reviewing, reflection, evaluating.

so we move on better and more effective.

we dont muddle muddle through the limited days of our lives.

2008-02-16T19:02:00.003+08:00

back from service.

was feeling discouraged over certain happenings.

we all wanna be effective in what we are doing,
and we like good states of things to remain as they are.
but yeah, we have come far enough in life to realise
that the only thing that remains constant in life is change.

anyway, the presense of God encouraged me.
through the time of worship,
tears came streaming down
as God told me thats its ok, that i am only human.
Daniel reminded me that when we are weak, God is strong in our lives.

pastor taught us about values.
it is so true.
we need values in our lives.
they are the anchors in our everyday decisions.
otherwise, we are just unstable reeds swaying through the course of life.

loyalty.
commitment.
respect.
accountability.
family.
love.
faithfulness.
hard work.
integrity.
generosity.

love suffers long
and is kind;
love does not envy;
love does not parade itself,
is not puffed up;
does not behave rudely,
does not seek its own,
is not provoked,
thinks no evil;
does not rejoice in inquity,
but rejoices in the truth;
bears all things,
believes all things,
hopes all things,
endures all things.
love never fails.

=D

2008-02-14T17:01:00.003+08:00

Little Superhero Girl

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world
Everybody wants a piece of me
And I just don't know where to turn
I've got work piled up to my head
All I want to do is jump into bed
And wash away my troubles
with lemonade
Play hide and seek
with the boy next door
Take a trip to Singapore and
Imagine how I'll make the world
a better place

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-
Yeah

If I were a little girl
Trying to clean up the whole wide world
I'd kick the bad boys back to school
Teach them fighting's just not cool
I'd give every kid a teddy bear
Turn starving people into millionaires
Break glass ceilings with dynamite
sprinkle a little sugar and spice
Turn the bullies that terrorize
Into pink poodles that bark,
but don't bite

All I need is a good disguise
One where nobody can recognise
That I'm feeling so small
All I need is a secret weapon
I've gotta have faith
Zapping monsters into outer space
I'm gonna be a Superhero

Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-
Yeah

Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me
Little Superhero Girl
Little Superhero Girl
Save me from myself

I feel like a little girl
Trying to conquer the whole wide world

-----
Wayne was nice enough to help me with the shift.
I brought 7 bags of things and my 2 pillows.
Packing the night before was not as daunting a task as expected.

The toilet cubicles have low walls.
I imagined bad people jumping up and scaring me over the low door.
With every entry, the toilet door slams itself real hard and loud.
Yucks.
And one only hopes it is another hostel-lite,
for the hostel compound is open,
and anyone can enter and perform their mischief.

The first night was fun,
Jieying, Wayne, Melvyn and I drove out to bowl and we were conned into a long, long journey into a part of Kranji that overlooked Johor.

The second night at Jurong Point NTUC,
I realised "Ice Mountain" mineral water bottles were going for $1 for 2 1litre bottles and $0.95 for 3 600ml bottles.
Well done.
haha!

My room-mate told me that there is a lingerine thief in my block.
Somebody's bra just got stolen from the hanging net outside her unit.

Anyway, it is a stage of getting used to my new dwelling.
Anxiety and fears for my safety.

ok, I better go and begin my 1800 words literature essay.
=D

---
eve of shift. 13feb.

If expectancy could yield the outcome,
news of a hostel would have arrived in December.

Yet, as the days went by, hope turned into despair.

Then, at the turn of the lunar new year,
the office called me up.

Maxine brought me to the hostel compound.
Nice red exterior.
Spacious rooms.

The next day,
armed with the keys,
I greeted my new dwelling.

It was later in the evening that I met my room-mate,
who welcomed me with such reassuring warmth.

Great start.
=D

2008-02-10T23:23:00.001+08:00

Yihan, 28jan.
http://yihan84.blogspot.com/
(really cool entries. check them out!)

Had a superb service.

Dr Bernard just has a way of putting across terms in an articulate, sophisticated way.

God sees us not as we are, but what we can be. We can be the junkiest of the junk, but God never sees us as that, but what we can become in Him.

Amazing.

Jack Neo came up to share his testimony and about his movie on stage!

He said that when he was making Ah Long Pte Ltd, he felt that there was something missing in the movie, but he couldn't figure out what. Then he prayed to God and asked God for direction, and " I believe God spoke to me, and gave me a prompting and I found what was missing" Wow. This from the mouth of Jack Neo. Haha.

"And as for what God spoke to me about the movie, go and watch it and I believe God will speak to you too!"

That was funny. Haha.

And Pastor said that Liu Geng Hong is giving Jay Chou Bible study and he's getting more on fire for God each day! Wow. =) Praise the Lord. I think the public declaration of his faith will be the most impactful throughout Asia in time!

I told God," God, I want to be part of all these, I don't want to left behind.."

2008-02-10T22:57:00.000+08:00

watched i not stupid 2 on tv.
the second half only tho.
came home at that time.

classic lines.
"nobody ever cared for me. i never knew how to love."
"there are no kids that cannot be taught, only adults who do not know how to teach."
"dad, i stole the money to buy one hour of your time to come and watch my performance."
"everyone needs encouragement and praises. be extravagant with your compliments!"
"awaken the angel within each child."

watched cj7 too.
cried.
the paternal love.
the sacrifice.

2008-02-08T03:07:00.000+08:00

photos by Wayne Lim

2008-02-08T02:19:00.000+08:00

im getting a decent digital camera soon.
needa capture moments of my life with my own eyes.
=D

meanwhile, these are from ahping!

Teacher Estelle!

train station. =)

dont you think we look like real sisters? =D

2008-02-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

ahGong shared that he was very sick at his work hostel.
the kind, young lady that took care of him later became his wife.
he was 23, she was 20.
they had 6 children in 7 years,
before she passed on from asthma.
my mother was 6 then.

ahGong showed us their photos.
such a sweet-looking lady.
how grief must ahGong be when ahMa left him for good.
and how much she had to be missing out on,
life, love and joy.
=<
=>

2008-02-04T01:11:00.000+08:00

saturday morning.
sat there.
the presense of God came.
a great sense of purpose fell upon me.

Jesus entered into their world.

sunday afternoon.
such a burning pain in my heart for the lost.
it's worth it. it's worth it.

sunday night.
spending time with people of my kind of conviction.
some sanity.

so much of being in the world,
to realise i'm still of my kind,
is a relief.
still sane, still sane.
caught some of their fire,
caught the sweetness of the friendships.

the other side of the world,
aspects for admiration,
but hey,
they are different,
they are different.
be wise.
be wise.

friendships.
outreaches.
different.
different.

2008-01-24T21:38:00.000+08:00

disappointments are inevitable in life.
when things seem to be going so well,
we hope such days would last forever.
but no, they don't always.

but yeah,
we treat each life with all sincerity.
we live each day right and true.
we do all things with love.

2008-01-20T00:02:00.000+08:00

12.02am.

9am-5pm was the facilitation course.
then 4 hours of tuition.

Spencer is so cute.
my primary four student.
He is so cute and so easy to teach,
i think i'll keep this tuition going.
=)

"five loaves and two fishes" running on this computer.
nice song.

so tired.

dont feel good.
haven connected with any frens today.

to feel connected is to have loved and feel loved.
connected is heart to heart.
connected is soul to soul.

heart to heart.
soul to soul.

=)

song changed to "the prayer".

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know

Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che to dai

I pray we'll find your light
Nel cuore restero
And hold it in our hearts
A ricordarchi che
When stars go out each night
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
Let this be our prayer
Quanta fede c'e
When shadows fill our day
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace

Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Sognamo un mondo senza piu violenza

Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita

La forza che ci dai
We ask that life be kind
E'il desiderio che
And watch us from above
Ognuno trovi amore
We hope each soul will find
Intorno e dentro a se
Another soul to love

Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child

Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

2008-01-18T23:24:00.000+08:00

and so,
2.5 weeks into NIE.

found friends.
found fun.

NIE is made up of tall buildings,
i feel inspired walking along them,
looking up.

up the second floors,
you see green in the near distance.
beautiful green tropical rain-forest.
mesmerizing.
i cant take my eyes off it.

it is sunny,
and great clouds painted the blue sky with some white.
mr wind is usually very generous.
i love the warmth of rays on my face,
i love the wind blowing through my hair.

i love life.
i hope you are too.

cheers.

=>

2008-01-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

2008-01-09T17:51:00.000+08:00

they love all and they welcome and accept all.
whoever, whatever.

young or old.
fat or thin.
tall or short.
clever or stupid.
pretty or ugly.
rich or poor.
whatever.

everyone has a potential to become a friend.

there is no prejudice, no stereotyping.
some people pretend to accept all,
but still, you sense that acting.

but this is no pretense.

love and acceptance.
and im quite amazed.
and im challenged.

=D

2008-01-09T12:50:00.000+08:00

Five Loaves and Two Fishes
Corrinne May

A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand

The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed

But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:

"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"

I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all

But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hands
and every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer

So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All that you need is my "Amen"

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small

I trust in you
I trust in you

Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears and inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small

2008-01-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

zone thanksgiving.
ahPing won the most changed award.
Jesus changes lives.
im proud of you Rouping!
=>

Zhizang and Delicia were both nominees in the event too.
woah!!!
Well done!
=)

2008-01-01T17:47:00.000+08:00

watched a movie about what a lady did through the one year from her breakup.

her emotional journey.
well.
guess its never easy.
its very pain.
pain.
pain.

but yeah.
after an entire year,
she found herself again.
=>

Joy, peace and Love to you.
have a blessed 2008.
=D

2007-12-31T10:41:00.000+08:00

MIRA - my friends from a YMCA volunteers' camp. =)

2007-12-31T10:38:00.000+08:00

a thorn among roses...

2007-12-31T10:35:00.000+08:00

...and a rose among thorns... haha.. no la... =P

2007-12-31T10:32:00.001+08:00

my beautiful mother n my handsome father. =D